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Alright I was too depelted to actually write up a decent blog yesterday so here's my do-over and to top it off Im 6days out from WBFF worlds championship. It'll be my first figure show, Im going at this sans a coach right now simply because Im broke ass and just can't budget it in right now!!
Since my roomate Ben left, I wouldn't necessarrily say things have been rough!! In fact quite the oposite, my body has dramatically benifeted from the huge reduction in stress just from his presence being simply; not there. Cash's been short but it's what I figured so basically been making the ends meet for both my prep n generally staying alive!! Hahaha.
I guess maybe because in my 22 years I've moved 22 times in total; from the group home, to young womens shelter, to the ymca to living in a motel, to downtown ottawa on the streets, to so many rooming houses I can't even think about it, to Brockville and back; and the move to Kanata to start it all of when I was 13. So I guess being able to pick up and leave within a moments notice has always been my niche; I have everything I would really need in my gym bag or backpack, subconciously really. Ever since Ben left however I've decided I want a normal, or best I can get, to a normal life! Hahaha I'm perfectly content with my futon computer chair and table but perhaps one could start to make a home out of a house! Whihc is exactly what I've begun doing, haha, starting off small but I'm finally feeling like I don't have to pick up and leave in 3 months! That can get kinda stressful after the 12th time... hahaha... ahhh well.
My parents won't be coming to my show- it's all good though, they're there in spirit & support me the best they can, my daddy came thru with my regristration fee & my moms helped me out with my outfits for my photoshoot the following day with Jamie Watling. I've always had a fascinating relationship with the family, I wouldn't trade any of it I guess, I mean hey my life would be so different if I could go back and change somethings but I probably wouldn't be here writing this now and I probably wouldn't be doing what I am doing! I truly love my life, hard work has gotten me extremely far, despite life seriously wanting to hold me back, Ive wored hard for everything I have, very hard; hard working isn't a term I even should use it's simply being a live and moving forward. Of course theres times in my life, more than I can count, where I wish I could just not and give up but fuck man, you just cant!!! say it to yourself- "Fuck it i give up, life you win" now wait.. wait some more... wait more... has your situation changed?! Yaa mine didn't either so I got up, and kept moving forward just knowing that one day.. one day, it wasn't gonna be like this I just had to keep moving forward and eventually I'd find myself where I wanna be. Anyway
these last 6days are my favorite of all time for prep, I enjoy the tediousness and the need to be precise, I like the detail that all goes in this final week to bring out your best on stage.
Anyway everything changes based on how I feel daily, I have a general few rules I follow a week out, from the monday I water load, start my sodium cut, by tuesday my sodium has ben dropped, also zero carb til thursday, I'll have 2 full body cable depletion workout either on Monday-Tuesday or Tuesday-Wednesday, depending if I get my ass today to do my last chest day workout later today! I'll continue with my 1.5 hours of cardio a day alongside HIIT cardio session inbewteen my traing. low carb monday, zero from tuesday to thursday, thursday night I will begin a clean fat and carb load with potatoe and steak, probbaly my last 2 meals of the day, friday i will go zero carb until mid afternoon when I also drop my water then I'll clean load til friday night when I'll start my carb load for stage!! Anyway stay tuned :D

1week out!!

Hey everyone!!! I havent updated cuz wel i havent had internet access hahaha,. neways everythings going fairly well, working n prepping away thaaats abuot it for me!! preps been going amazing so far, i asume haha, as i dont have a coach cuz im broke ass n this is gonna me my first figure comp, we'll see how everything ties in together! haha my minds pretty much gone at this point so im gonna keep this short n sweet!! my parents wont be coming to my show but whtaever there in spirit right!! if u wanna commmeeee living arts centre missisagua  (toronto) tickets online @ wbffshows.com or at the door... nick carters gonna be there wooo hooo ahahaha im registered n ready to go i have my suit n went out the other day for my photoshoot outfits wchih ill be sending to jamie watling today for the all clear lol.... annnyywaayyy ive come along way from a year ago, worked really frikken hard n sacrificed alot, lost a lot of friends n made some amazing ones in turn; wouldnt trade any of it for a second..... i want my pro card but we;ll see how it goes 1st time for everything see ya in 7 days! xo