10wks out!!

Alright so it's been a little while, almost a month sicne ive updated my blog. Ive just been enjoying the weather, living life, you know just loving the life i live, living the life i love!!!
So I've come to terms with the fact that dieting is my weakest point, then cardio then the lift. Hahaha. I set myself up for failure repeating the same mistakes that burnt me out from my last show. I planned too much, too soon, didn't analyze my situation enough and determine the best decision. Hense the reason why I am not currently on stage in Toronto, why I didnt compete with WBFF in April and why I have fully commited and will succeed on the WBFF WORLDS STAGE IN AUGUST  in TORONTO.
I basically bit off more than I could chew, with all the best intentions yet worst planning strategies.
With much guidance from my offseason coach Pamela Bortmes @ Absolute Health & Fitness; I did put on the neccessary size. I have since decided I want to coach myself for the worlds show. Not for any particular reason other than Ive always been independant. I walk alone and stand stronger for it; it sucks sometimes but hey do what you gotta do!! I lived in a group home when I was 13, then moved back home, then when I was 17 my parents put me in a young womens shelter, from there I lived in the YMCA for about a month, then lived in a motel down on Carling ave for another few weeks with a friend, now family, I met in the young womens shelter. From there I ended up on welfare, ended up facing a charge and a 2-day court trial which was case dismissed; lived down on Murray st DT, where I had probably, at 17-18, alongside my friends, the craziest most ***ed up summer one can imagine. I then moved close to Algonquin college, attended school as a Personal support worker, graduated on the dean's list. Worked fulltime nightshift, then found my life in absolute dispair, moved to Brockville, kicked it there for a new months, then found myself in premier fitness throwing weight around like a fool who; got inspired by Mel Gardner "shit that girl is fuuuucking jacked holy shittttt" and Brittany byrd "Holy shittt that girls fiiitttttt I dont think I like her much" Hhahahahaha. Hey i'll admit i was jealous and it fueled my workouts; lol thanks Girl :P
Competed in a bikini competition, found my way back to ottwaw, bartended at a few diff places dt, but really delved into fitness, worked for goodlife, quit cuz i guess the management at the time really had no real drive for actually helping people, more like helping people spend their money; lol sooorrry GL ;) i know everyones gotta make their coin
Competed a few more times, and now here I am. Thats just a break down of my life. Ive moved around as many times as years i am old. My parents idk, theyre fairweather parents, thats the nicest way of putting it, theyre around when things are good and arent when things are bad. I wasnt an angel child, hells no, but i was a kid,  :P ; sometimes its crazy how my parents can go months upon months without even knowing if im ok, sometimes it really gets to me, but i let it fuel me. i have come this far and i plan on only going further. I dont have much but i have way more than i could have ever imagined a few years ago. karma has been my speed bumps and ive accepted that, ive done dirt so life isnt going to be easy; but constantly trying to better myself i know one day thing are gonna be way more than i could have ever imagined.

Now here we are 10wks out. im leaning down nicely. My roomates actually been a huge stress, unfortunately you can care about someone so much and yet they will still backstab you, i have to chalk it down to karma. Oh well. Only gonna let it fuel me.
This will be my best show, my best physique, a completely different look.  stay tuned :D