Awesome!!

so since being out of school theres been absolutely no excuses to not be 100% with the diet.
carb cycling is amazing, i love it. i did it for my first show and now with even more education, knowledge, exerpence and understanding of myself and my body, this is gonna be a breeze. well ok
its not gonna be easy, im only writing this blog right now cause the ONLY thing running through my mind right know is eating bananas with peanut butter, having sum ice cream and being fat all night. hahaah
but no legit, food doesnt really taste the way it used to anymore, okay theres some food which is just plain BOMB diggity yo, like BLTS, BOMB, pineapple BOMB, BBQ chicken BOMB, brownies BOMB. but im aiming so high NONE of that even remotely seems to care.

It's funny though; now being on diet since the end of janurary, "on diet" i mean cutting out those awesome offseason fun stuff! putting on the size i needed to be satisfied and DAMN homie, i was lookign through my old pictures and holy crap, how much i have changed. mentally, physically, spiritually. its been an amazing growing, literally, exeperience and i cannot wait for more!!

im all over the place cuz im not really able to grasp a full thought for too long oh ya.

im really not down , never have been, for those people who think theyre better than everyone else.
hey im not flashy, i dont have a lot of money, i dont have the most expensive clothes, never have; ive worn hand me downs, only buy clothes 3x;s a yr, i really only get dolled up when im competing or going out on the townand i stay in on fri-sun, dont go out during the week; id rather wear sweat pants than skinny jeans, i rather throw around 45 plates with the boys than watch gossip girl... ya i geuss thats boring lol, same routine everyday... but i help people, i listen and im not just waiting for my turn to speak, i try to be as real as i can be but im not perfect, and i dont ask for much in return just respect. im not bout the money, im about the loyalty. idk i jsut seem to come across and encounter a lot of people who simply have no idea where they stand in the world. they dont really get to me partly because, hey listen, its not ur life, why u tripping?! meh; im not gonna be a hypocrit and say i havent done my shit and done a lot of things, but trust me karma is in full effect and ive been dealt my hands for my actions; but legit; its not like my karmas still biting me in the ass, its more or less ive reached the point where i gotta ask ya'll. why is there a heck of a lot of mean selfish people out there? not to mention unhappy?!

LIVE LIFE, love it, live it for yourself and dont hurt others as best you cant, dont judge or prepare to be judged, have an open mind and heart but dont be a fool; constantly, no matter what, let your expeences in life change you and shape you, grow, be better than yesterday; strive for more. im not saying smile like a goof to everyone you see and strike up convos to every old lady you cross; but damn homie, if given the chance to do good, DO IT! stop take a minute think.

thats about the only thing which gets to me more and more as i diet and chug along. hahaaha

saw this post on my friends pics!

"My passion, you call obsession... my commitment you think unwarrented, my drive you can't comprehend so to you it must be flawed, you tell me to live, I tell you to quit dying.. Do I make you uncomfortable? GOOD. Now stand up and find yourself your own PASSION."


Yo some people ask me why? Why so into it? Why so serious about it. From some friends to my parents its why? Well why not?????\

Fitness saved my life, if you know me you'll fully understand where i came from where I have been, and how utterly dark i had become a few years back. i was in a BAD place, and it was lonely too. dark and lonely NOT A GOOD COMBO! hahaha

but now its a 180, life is FUCKING AMAZING. ive come a long way and im proud to say im still here.


crap my roomate keeps eating all my healthy food. legit its the most annoying thing, espeically if youre not dieitng cuz you can pretty much eat whatever.
like legit homie.
you drank my diet coke, while eating my chcolates i was saving for my show.


uhh goddamn